I will ace it!

Being contented is the key.

I think I am fortunate. 

And I know i am going to be great!

Watchout!!! I will ace it!

Left out

Well, finally i think it's about time to settle down....

I have been left out, finding myself a little bit far behind.

Will catch up, it's not always easy, but at least I know I am on the right track.

Fluctuation

So, i guess that is the end of the orientation. There ain't much that i have done but i think orientation is all about making friends right? Introduce yourself, listen to others introducing themselves and the silly ice-breaking. Well, kinda old-fashioned typed of routine, but we gotta get over it.

Well, not trying to be emotional or what, it's tougher than i thought. At least not easy as i did before. Perhaps i was just trying too hard to fit in the dominant. It's pretty scary being alone in your class. Lecturers are just great enough but those subjects are just turning me crazy, tougher than i expected but well it's just the beginning. I know i can cope with that, would take about some time.

Sockqi's death was the devastating one. We were pretty much close when we were in Form 2 or 3 and i was just startled by the tragedy. It's like losing a family member. I miss her as what others do. She is great, pretty, adorable and optimistic. She smiled a lot, and sometimes made others smile real bad. I know God needs her more than we do. Everything has it's season and maybe this is the time for her to have a better life.

What a long week......It's like taking a roller coaster.
Peaks and valleys. That's how thing always goes!

I will be fine and most importantly,

I will miss you!!!

New adventure

It's about time to start a brand new life.

I promise, after slacking for almost 6 months, getting ready to start a new a new life routine is absolutely nerve wrecking.It's definitely not an easy one.

Well, the new adventure is just about to begin.

Nothing is easy right, Life is a Climb, we all know that.

Loss

We lose too much as we grow bigger.

It’s bona fide… It does hurt when you lost something. Well, just the matter of time. Time will take those pains away…..

The world ain’t too bad. Sometimes, it is worth to lose certain things, because you actually gain something. Something which seemed to be so futile to you before. It’s no longer futile. It actually means something at this circumstance. Depends on how you look at it, in what way you actually want you life turn out to be?

What if I lost my dignity?

Blood transfusion.

I am not a maniac but i promised it was a crazy spontaneous decision, i went for blood transfusion.

Looking at the reddish fluid flowing out gently from my vein, through the long translucent pipe was a strange yet complicated feeling. After seeing a big pack of blood only i realized that i was doing a great deed.Strange er?!

However, that was great. It means something.

Every drop counts.

I am not hoping for any pay back but a nice sleep.

Joyous is in the air

Well, birthday's joy is in the air....

At last, let the blessings and joyous put out of the way with.

Had been having  heavy dinners for few days with my fellow friends. However all i got is my tummy is growing bigger and bigger.

By the way, I am contented with everything. Though they ain't my birthday. After all we have gone through, things are still able turn out in this ways. We appreciate.

Happy birthday buddy.

We all deserve to be treated nice!

Mad

I am truly going mad.

I promise i am not being pessimistic or sometimes i suspect i am born with it, but i just can't get any more gloomy than this.Well, i guess i need some treatment, mentally or psychologically.

I have got no idea of what is actually going on with me. Sometimes it strikes me once in a while.

It started a few weeks ago.I was trapped in this, again. In my own cycle. I started speculating upon what am i going to have, or so-called go through. Sad to say, i don't find it great. Well, all is just my imagination, especially the bad one.

I started worrying about my class, my coming social cycle, my homework, my assignments, my reports, my life, my future, my job.........

O gosh, and the living expenses, the tuition fees.......

Well the worst is. I am lost. I am not confident enough to strive in that.I don't think i am as adaptable as i think. It is going to be hard to survive in a strange and new environment.

Ok, i gotta stop mumbling.Grumbling will only make it worse.

I think i need a remedy. A remedy to boast up my confidence level. 

A hard yet precious one.

Well, it took me a life time to start this.

Since I am prone to start everything that never quite get finished, my goal is simply to KEEP WRITING.
It's not always easy i know.By the way, once i have started, i will never give up easily.At least i promise....

Surely,somewhere in the deep recesses of my mind, i dreamed on getting it to be a nice and hot one.
*Grining*It sounds impossible but i m trying.Trying really hard.

It is going to be my prolonged effort.

You gotta watchout!!!